Here I stand....

"The only way to start at the top is when you are digging a hole"
Anonymous

As the month gets to enter its second leap,I am yet to put myself together towards either deciding to make my year resolutions or just to go with the flow.I am firm believer of walking my talk and I work towards achieving what I had earlier visualised.

For the last few months,the organisation that I ran has been going through tremendous leaps and bounds.First our Internet service provider runs us out of business by giving us a raw deal and we go into a one year contract that we are trying to get out.The electricity bills seem to be doubling every month and of course that means no money to pay the workers.Well if you have mastered the art of reading between the lines you may tell what position I stand.

Yesterday was a day that I dedicated to think about if its really worth it to run the community centre that provides convenience to inhabitants living around it by using computers as a tool.I have come to realise that if you love something or someone,you can actually "trade places" to meet their need.My centre within the two years has been standing alone without help from its networks.Its been sidelined by several institutions but it has stood its ground by advocating and providing opportunities for the youth through training them on how to run their small businesses.

Imagine this,you are training or mentoring people on a certain issue but then the issue becomes the big problem you have to deal with."Physician,heal thyself" I couldn't stop from holding tears that flowed through my cheeks as if the floodgates had been open deep within me.My life had come to a stand still.The vibrant and confident Jose' that people knew became so vulnerable and couldn't find a way out.Within the two years that the centre has existed,we have been able to train more than 200 individuals on how to access funding and making their business plans attract investors and partners.here goes,we cannot bail ourselves out.The centre hasn't opened its doors since the year started.The computers are dead,bills are being incurred.way out?To be or not to be that is the question.